Hello Everyone!
I know I've been MIA for over a month now and I am very sorry about that but I going to be explaining what's been going on to make me not blog.
The reason I haven't been posting on here since mid-January is because I broke up with my boyfriend.
I've wanted to write about this for a while but couldn't really bring myself to it as it had been quite a sensitive subject until now. I suppose initially I didn't really want it broadcast everywhere for everyone to see. This is not going to be one of those 'I hate my ex' posts, it's one of those this is what happened and I'm okay with my life now.
We had been together for two years and for the most part it was good, but the last few months really weren't that fantastic. We were constantly arguing and it didn't seem like he really wanted 'us' anymore. There's only so much that one person can do when they realise that the person they love the most just doesn't love them back. When I finally realised this I had to confront him about it all and unfortunately, nothing he said to me made me want to stay with him.
It's been quite an emotional rollercoaster for me, as I've never really had to break up with someone. Usually it's the other way round and this was such a terrible feeling for me to have. I'd be feeling guilty one moment and happy the next, it was so surreal for me not to know what was going on in my head. After a couple of weeks I started to feel better but then whilst out with my girlfriends *bam* news hits.
I get shown my friends Facebook feed... 'Blah Blah is in a relationship with Blah Blah.'
That killed me. Someone I had loved with all my heart is now with someone else.
As much as my friends wanted to go mad at him I didn't let them.
I suppose once you realise that the other person just didn't love you then it's time to drop everything, move on and get yourself into a much happier place.
I am now purely focusing on my happiness. I shouldn't need to depend on another human to make me happy. I'm looking after my body a hell of a lot more and ensuring that I can be the best person I can. I have my goals and know what I want in life and you can be sure that I'm going to achieve everything that I've set myself! I'm only just realising how much someone can hold you back from your goals and aspirations, I'm never going to let that happen to me again.
It's all about me now.
Sophie
X
Apologies for the tone of this post, but I felt I needed to give you guys some sort of explanation as to why I hadn't been writing as much.
Rest assured, I'm back!
I've wanted to write about this for a while but couldn't really bring myself to it as it had been quite a sensitive subject until now. I suppose initially I didn't really want it broadcast everywhere for everyone to see. This is not going to be one of those 'I hate my ex' posts, it's one of those this is what happened and I'm okay with my life now.
We had been together for two years and for the most part it was good, but the last few months really weren't that fantastic. We were constantly arguing and it didn't seem like he really wanted 'us' anymore. There's only so much that one person can do when they realise that the person they love the most just doesn't love them back. When I finally realised this I had to confront him about it all and unfortunately, nothing he said to me made me want to stay with him.
It's been quite an emotional rollercoaster for me, as I've never really had to break up with someone. Usually it's the other way round and this was such a terrible feeling for me to have. I'd be feeling guilty one moment and happy the next, it was so surreal for me not to know what was going on in my head. After a couple of weeks I started to feel better but then whilst out with my girlfriends *bam* news hits.
I get shown my friends Facebook feed... 'Blah Blah is in a relationship with Blah Blah.'
That killed me. Someone I had loved with all my heart is now with someone else.
As much as my friends wanted to go mad at him I didn't let them.
I suppose once you realise that the other person just didn't love you then it's time to drop everything, move on and get yourself into a much happier place.
I am now purely focusing on my happiness. I shouldn't need to depend on another human to make me happy. I'm looking after my body a hell of a lot more and ensuring that I can be the best person I can. I have my goals and know what I want in life and you can be sure that I'm going to achieve everything that I've set myself! I'm only just realising how much someone can hold you back from your goals and aspirations, I'm never going to let that happen to me again.
It's all about me now.
Sophie
X
Apologies for the tone of this post, but I felt I needed to give you guys some sort of explanation as to why I hadn't been writing as much.
Rest assured, I'm back!
